Monthly Archives: November 2012
The Loss of a Mother
Two years ago today, one of my dearest and closest friends lost her mother. Two years…. It’s strange how quick time has gone by.
I can’t even begin to imagine the feeling of losing a mother. Or father. I would be devastated and wouldn’t know how to function. The thought scares me because I know that my parents won’t be here with me forever. I know I will have to face that one day and it doesn’t ever get easier. More for me because my father has been ill for many years and has been in and out of the hospital with a couple of scares along the way.
I cried earlier, as I wrote in a card I will give to my friend and her family. I can’t remember the last time I cried, but all the memories I had with her mother just came flooding in and out poured the tears.
RIP Anita. I know that heaven has gained one of its most beautiful angels I’ve had the pleasure of meeting on this Earth.
I miss the days of being young and carefree. No texting. No twitter. No Facebook. And yes….. even no Myspace. Back during a time where actual phone conversions were considered the norm. Back in a time where I had to memorize phone numbers to contact people. As much as I love social media, it changed things. It makes me sad for many of the young kids today as they live in a world where technology is so advanced that they have begun to lose their imaginations.
Thinking of the past made me think of some old friends. I sometimes wonder how different things would be if I still maintained certain friendships I have lost. I’m happy where I am, but once in a while, my mind slips away thinking of how things could have been.
Friends come and go, and It’s not necessarily a bad thing since we are always growing. Life happens, and when it does, we are all forced to make choices. These choices affect our relationships and certain people just sometimes begin to slip through the cracks, or are just completely cut out.
I have always wanted to be someone who had a ton of friends. For some reason, I’ve always associated having lots of friends with being content in life. It took some time, but I finally realized that it became less important to have a ton of friends, and more important to have real ones.
As you can see, I’ve really come a long way regarding my workouts and me getting in shape. I took like a 2 month break just cos I felt like I went at it way too hard. Last week, I began the workout regimen again and changed my eating habits once again. I feel great, look better and have vegan to she’d a few more pounds.
This time I’m re-doing Insanity with co workers after work. It’s a great motivation to have people there to keep you focused. I began to incorporate more ab, arm and chest workouts. I’m focused on toning my body and really getting in shape. I don’t wanna be squishy anymore.
Lets hope this sticks till the end of the year, and possibly beyond!
Oh, and I’ve had the BIGGEST craving for Chipotle. I’ve only eaten there twice in my life, but for some reason my urge to go has skyrocketed these past 2 weeks. Looks like I need a trip fairly soon!